On Love

Andrew didn't use the word "love" very often and didn't seem to like it, even though when he was asked where it came in, he'd say "at the beginning, in the middle, and at the end." At the time, I thought he worried that using it would lead into a mushy feel-good approach to things. He would also say that most people didn't know what love was, and he'd say, "True love burns." He seemed to feel he was the only one who knew what love was, and of course humiliating people, at least when he did it, was an expression of this cosmic love.

In retrospect, one of the more painful destructive aspects of being Andrew's students was the effort we made to make Andrew's twisted ideas about love our own.